Please Consider me Dead Today!

I am, by any parameter considered, a supremely highly functional person and not a psychopath. This means that I can keep working on and on and on and I hardly ever get tired, so much that I would even work on days off just for fun, until of course one fine day in 9-12 months when I have a major give up.

Not so surprisingly, this one day is more often than not, also the day when all hell breaks loose and makes me wonder, is the world really going to end today? Am I actually that important? Can the world stop running if I am not in it?

At the outset, it seems true but in reality, we all know that is not the truth. However, what is also true is the concept of Moh-Maya or in other words our attachment to the things around us. We think that if we aren't in it, it'll all be ruined. As weird as it may sound, it does sound true too because we are the decision-makers, it's our credibility at stake, We don't want the client to feel otherwise, they are gods, only I am able to understand what is at stake, this is a part of the life I have chosen, ye to Karna hi padega, apna business hai to, blah blah blah!

Anyway, with all the self-proclaimed calamities happening around, I finally started working again to prevent any immediate disaster from happening. In all honesty, I couldn't see one happening either, but then fine," ab neend toot hi gai hai to kaam hi kar leti hu Bhai fir"

So, coming back to the topic, I gave this thing quite a thought today, since I wasn't at my best and so my mind was wandering a lot! What max could have happened. to that presentation or that GST bill not showing? It would have been delayed by 2/3 days at max. Today would have been an unproductive day for some people in the team but they have been so productive all this while so how would that even have mattered.

I think, in that instance when I chose to respond and take charge instead of resting for a change, I gave myself the level of importance that nobody else does. Now, that I have realised it, will it prevent me from doing something similar the next time- HELL NO!

But should I do that? I don't know, we'll see!

For now, I have expressed my feelings out and I am back to work in full swing so, let's see when the next rest phase hits me!

Till then, leaving you with this funny strip from The Square comics

PS: Okay, one more thing- I have this luxury because I don't have a literal boss over me and I am super productive 99.9% of the time. However, you, as the reader maybe someone with a super nasty boss or an extremely unhealthy/super-competitive environment. You may also be actually an extremely critical resource. So, if you have any such variables in play, please feel free to choose your actions accordingly. Our lives are different, and so should be our actions!